Hello there, welcome to my DeviantArt Profile, name´s Zeraphinda!
I'm a quirky game design and art student aiming to improve her technique and skills to become a professional one day.
I´m generally nice, so I won’t bite or scratch, unless it´s necessary or you´d like me to ;3
There is no need to thank me for commenting, hitting the favorite button on your art, gifting you a llama or watching you - If I did so, I enjoyed doing so and you deserve it ;3
I appreciate all of your comments, watches and faves very much - please forgive me if I don´t make it to answer all of you appropriately, the studies are keeping me busy y-y
Hey Everybody ~ it's been a while!
Life's keeping me busy as ever.
And changed quite a bit once again. That wretched little beast does not care to let me settle it seems :'D
My fiancee back in December is now my second ex-boyfriend, despite everything I still feel for him...
It's a long story really, but I guess the root of it is that it is just very hard to go from living in the same room 24/7 to a long distance relationship with hard studies involved, where life starts to revolve around other things than about living together. It saddens me that I wasn't stronger and able to save it somehow, but I have accepted that it´s over and I bear no hard feelings towards him.
Meanwhile I've met a lot of lovely people in my new life here in Germany and they've been very kind and supporting.
I love it here.
And I've come to realize, that love might be a little different from what I imagined it to be. At least that ist, for me.Love is no exclusive thing but instead something much stronger in my life. I love my friends the same as I loved him or myself.
And I cannot change that, it´s just the way I am. I cannot value someone I love any more or less than another.
I do have different levels of affection yes, but the highest one is not limitited to one person for me.
That was really hard to face. But I understand it now. And I'm okay with that.
But it also means a lot of trouble, because a lot of people do not understand that.
Right now, I am in a relationship again. Sort of. I'd call it a partnership.
We're a team of two people who manage life together and who have and are allowed to have our own love interests aside from each other for that matter.
Anyway. As you might have noticed, my art isn't improving much in the last few months.
That's primarily because I'm in the game design part of my studies right now, which does not involve much art and I've been responsible and am again responsible for a team of students in our semester games projects. Last time it failed miserably, due to my lack of firm leadership but mainly because of some other team members who weren't prepared to give it their everything.
This time things are going a lot better, the team spirit is strong and high and we're doing fine.
But my drawing time does suffer severe shortcomings. Also because I hardly find time to finish anything lately since my health is going south again.
I'm very sorry for that, but right now my top priority is my studies, since I've put so much on the life to be able to attend them.
But there will be more soon. Sometime these next days I'll scan all my doodly sketches and stuff and upload them for you to see.
I'm looking forward to getting more practice and better by doing so once I'm done with game design and my actual art education has started.
Until then, stay tuned for half baked stuff ;3
Lots of care, inspiration and good things to you all,